Saturday, February 14, 2009

some things are just so disappointing
am i not part of the class?
so you just don't bother to ask if when there's outings
i just HAVE to hear it through OTHERS
i know i've been mia-ing
but sometimes i was really not free
sometimes i don't feel like going
want to know why?
because everytime i go, i feel out of place
because everytime i go, i always keep quiet
because everytime i go, i don't seem to be able to clique with you all
because i'm not in the happening clique
because i don't usually open up to people easily
because i'm insignificant to you all
because everytime i go, i come back feeling upset and depressed
because everytime i go, it just makes me wonder if my existence amongst you all is needed

and see-ing all the outings that happened without me knowing
i think i'm quite sure that my existence is not needed
seriously

now, who says secondary school friends were made to last?
i think that's such a lie
well for me i guess

youguysreallydisappointmebutiguessionlyhavemyselftoblameionlyhavemycharacterandpersonalitytoblame

what we could have been, 14.2.09.